12. Beginning. (1998)

Originally written as the intro to this site when it first went online in January 1999.

What do I believe in?

I believe that you will almost always be let down. If you are not, it is the exception, not the rule. I believe that people are inherently bad, and if you are lucky enough to find a few truly decent ones to associate with, it is the exception, not the rule.

I believe that I will always be disappointed and very seldom surprised; I would rather be negative and surprised once in a while than positive and disappointed all time.

I believe that trying to live by any set of standards or code of ethics is a frustrating exercise in futility, since fewer and fewer people each day seem to give a fuck about courtesy or respect.
I believe that earth is purgatory. It isn’t some mysterious place on the way to Hell. We’re fucking there. Right now.

Look around; there’s a child-raping priest in every neighborhood, depravity on every channel, atrocities on every front page, disease on every doorstep, government in every mailbox.

I believe that the days of carefree enjoyment are long gone.
When I’m at home, I relax. When I walk out my door, this is war.
Everyone is out for themselves; everyone is out to belittle thy neighbor. I won’t be a target, and I’ll never be a victim; I will make a stark example out of any attempt at either.

Fuck you, and fuck all your friends that aren’t going to stick up for you when the real bell tolls. They never really liked you and neither do I.